winduuuu!!!!!!!

salam sume...da lme da ase nyer xupdate blog nie...last aq update mse abis sem 1...skang da abis da pown sem 2...mcm2 perkre yg brlaku...slah stu nyer yg aq sndri xprcye...heheh..aq da pown kwen...n da ngndung da pown...aq syg sgt at hubby aq...aq xske owg yg nk hncur an kbhagiaan aq ngan suami aq sndri...aq harap hbngan ktowg kekal smpai ke akhir hyat aq...2 jela stu2 nyer doa aq tok fmly aq...aq n dye...suami aq diberi nme Mohd Hafiz bin Noordin...beza umor ktowg agak jaoh...aq bru je 19 taon tpi dye da 29 taon...tpi jarak umor ktowg bkan la mnjadi mslah...yg pnting ktowg serasi sgt2...gaduh skit2 2 bese la...klu ngan pkwe pown bole gaduh nie kan la plak suami istri...sperti lagu p ramlee dlu...sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit inikan pula suami istri...so normal la kan...lgi pown ktowg bkan gadoh besar pown smpai nk bling2 brang...ala bese la gado mnje...lpas gado ngajok n then pjok blek...huhu...cm2 la aq ngan laki aq...dye sporting sgt...yg pling aq xthan n cair sgt2...ble aq tgok dye snyum pstu kuar la lesung pipit sblah je 2 yg nk xnk je kuar...comel sgt2...arap2 ank aq t sume ikot dye...de lesung pipit...hehheeheh...owg mgkin akn ckp laki aq xhnsem...aq xprnah nmpk dye xhnsem...dye sntiase hnsem n sentiase de dlm atie aq...skang nie da blan 5 2012...blan dpan aq akn msok sem baru...sem 3...tpi aq akn extend sem tok stu taon sbb due aq t blan 10 n mse 2 aq ngah exam...sguh bhaye klu aq tros kan jgk exam...so aq akan extend tok 1 taon...laki aq nie xde la kye pown...ktowg due2 asal dri golongan yg sme...sederhane...de mse kkurangan duet...laki aq kje sbgai pemandu lori...aq xksah pown dye nk kje pe...asal an duet 2 dtg dri hasil yg halal...ckop la...blan prtme aq idop ngan dye aq blaja cre idop ssh...bese la kan owg bru nk bine idop bru...susah dulu xpe...kmudian ary insyaAllah idop ktowg snang...rezeki 2 at mne2 pown ade kan...aq x prnah pown mngeluh...sbb nie jlan yg aq plih...kowg2...doa kn kbhgiaan aq ea...k la...t aq smbung gie k...bye salam...

terakhir kali nyer...

ai sume...da lme x update an...bzy la skang nie...klu post2 yg dlu lbey pde mnyakit an...tpi kli nie nk cter psal kwan2 sye yg de at kolej uniti..erm...cter kli nie agak sdey skit..kwan2 stu umh ngan aq xde un yg dak semban...3 owg dri srwak yg len dri sbah...dyowg nie baek sgt2 ngan aq...aq ase syg lak nk pndah kolej...t at bwh nie aq msok an gmbr ktowg sme2..aq dpt twran msok poli...ibu n ayh pown sowh aq amek sne...sbb mrah skit aq nk kne byar...xde la tiap2 sem nk kne byar seribu lbey...ratus2 je...so duit pt 2 t bley ar aq plang an blek...tpi aq windu la nk grau2 ngan kwan2 aq gie...nk grau2 ngan pak cik aris...nk pndg mke abg tu..huhumcm2 gie ar...tpi xpe la...aq da pown wat kptsan nk pndh n aq akn tros an...xksah la aq sdey ke x...yg pntg aq nk mle blaja blek...nk blaja btol2...2 yg pntg...kwan2 aq yg at uniti xkan aq lupa an...dyowg ttap akn jdi kngn trindah aq...k la ank out..nk tdo...da lmbt sgt..t ibu mra...k daaa....

buntu...

aq skang nie buntu sgt2...xtau nk wat pe...nk xnk aq kne gak wat kptsan...mgkin kptsan aq nie akn mmbuatkan atie aq n dye trluke...tpi...nie sume tok kebaikan sume...aq xnk dsbab an aq rmai gie yg trluke...aq rela korban an cinte aq...aq prlu pkir mse dpan aq..pe yg akn brlaku mse akn dtg klu aq still ngan dye...prent aq rstu ke hbngan kmi????aq xtau...aq xsgop mghncurkan mse dpan owg len...aq xnk de glaran "......."aq yakin stu ary nnti dye akn apy gak ngan owg trsyg n akn lupe an aq...aq tau dye ssh nk lpas an owg tu...wlau pown dye ckp xkn lpas an aq tpi aq yg trpkse lpas an dye...blan nie blan pose....aq arap sgt blan nie aq bley tgal an dye...tok kebaikan sume....mgkin awal2 nie perit kowt...tpi aq tau aq boleh...juz aq xley tgal sowg2..aq kne de kwan tok aq brcerite...aq xbley nk tggung sowg2...mengetahui stu rhsia dah wat atie aq trluke sgt2...trlalu dlam...npe dye bgitau aq ble aq da syg sgt2 at dye...dye tau aq akn ssh nk tgal an dye...da byk sgt da knangan ktowg...aq akn smpan sume knangan tu smpai ble2...wlau pown aq da de owg len t aq xkan prnh lpe an knangan ktowg...aq hnya brserah pda tkdir je...jodoh aq aq yakin sgt2...klu xdpt dye skali pown aq msti dpt sowg yg baek...klu jdoh aq mmg ngan dye...aq akn tgu..aq reda..tpi aq kne de kekuatan tok sume nie...awak..maaf an sye trpkse tpu awak...tr pkse tgal an awak...sye syg awak...tpi sye trpkse...mgkin syg sye at awak xsedlam syg awak at sye...maaf an sye trpkse undur dri....aq kne wat kptsan skang...aq bleh ke????aq xmmpu nk pkir pape skang nie...mslh nie cam aq tggung sowg2 je...asyik trpkir pslh tu...tpi dye???aq xtau...k nk out lu...jap gie de kwad kaki...at ku...skang nie nk gie siap...sbb 1 da nk kne naek bas....daaaa....

aq bengang!!!!

ary nie aq bengang sgt2...xprnh aq rse skit atie cmnie sgt...aq mcm da kne tpu je skang nie...smpai atie dye wat aq cmnie...pe slh aq...bsar sgt ke slh aq at dye...smpai dye cri yg len....aq nie cmne???laki sume nyer sme je...mne prnh ckp ngan sowg...aq stie at dye...dye??dpan2 aq ark tu bley plak mengayat pompuan len...nie yg aq nmpk...yg aq prsan...yg aq xprasan xtau lgi byk agak nyer...aq tau spe aq...aq sdar...aq bkn nyer cntik pown...pndai pown x...ank owg kye???lgi ar x...aq ase aq nie bdoh sgt ar...sbb prcye at dye...aq trtkan sgt2...aq at snie cam owg bdoh je dye wat...dye bley plak wt xtau...cam xder bnde yg brlaku...pstu bley plak cri pompuan len...aq da agk ar...btol ar firasat atie aq nie...atie aq kuat mengatakan ktowg da mle jaoh...mlah da smakin renggang...hbgan ktowg nie da mlm retak mnanti belah je...tgu mse je...aq xtau ar...klu la aq nie kuat aq bley tggal an dye da lme da aq tgal an dye..tpi aq xkuat..aq lmah sgt2..aq buntu...mkin lme pnyakit aq pown mkin trok....aq mlas nk gie check...yg aq tau...skang nie aq da rse skit aq tu mkin krap sgt dtg...xkre mse...mgkin sbb aq trlalu preasure kowt...pnyakit aq tu biar aq jela yg tau..kowg xyah ar tau pe pnyakit aq tu...xpntg pown tok kowg tau...k ar...da pnat da aq mmbebel..huhuhu...daaaaa

ary nie aq nk blek kolej da...tpi aq xbwk laptop...ibu xbgi..t aq nk gie camp wisau laptop tgal at kolej lme2...xksah ar an...yg pntg aq bley bwk blek t...aq pnat ar nk tgu ibu n ayh nie...ble la nk blek...aq nk blek nie.kwan2 da tgu da...amoi n ija cian dyowg kne tgu aq lme2...xtau ar dyowg wat pe skang nie...aq ase cam nk blek sndri je...klu bley la,....tpi xbley...sbb aq nk kne tgu ibu aq lu...klu ibu aq xksah aq tgal an kunci then aq blek ar naek ktm ke smban...ala...ibu..cpat la...dyowg da lme tgu 2...k la...nk siap2...t snang...aq pown blom mkan gie nie...daaaa...

esok aq da nk blek uniti...wlau pown cti aq lme gie...aq kne blek awal...sbb aq nk wat assignment...ary jmaat aq da gie camp...xsmpat da nk wat assignment aq yg brlambak 2...erm...mcm mne ea...aq xtau ar nk blek sok camne...nk bwk blek laptop xbley...ibu bsing xbgi...nk xnk kne la jgk tgal an...mm...mcm mne la nk wat assignment t...nk pnjam kwan nyer laptop...ala...ssh la...aq da ar xske pnjam2...leceh...erm...xpe ar...t aq cbe pnjam at si fifi...dye bgi kowt...ps2 tros gie print at dye...an sng...huhuhu...erm lgi stu...aq nk jual topup...nk cri duet lbih la kte an...tpi..modal xde ar...nk amek mne plak modal 2...nk mntk ayh???erm..xpe la...ayh msti xbgi nyer ar...lbey baek aq kmpol duet lu...t ble da ckop bru ar aq wat...erm...mgkin bkn skang kowt...mgkin mgu dpan...nyer dpan...nyer dpan....xtau...huhu....lme sgt 2...tgok keadaan ar lu...de rezeki de ar...cam ne nk mula niage xde modal...tol ark...erm...k ar...kwan2 aq nie...sbok je nk komen byk2 at post aq at fb 2...pning aq nk lyan...seb baek aq xkne maigrain au...huhuh...daaaa...

ary nie aq dok umah je...sowg2...xtau nk wat pe...pnat..pnat sgt2..pnat ngan mslah yg slalu de at pkiran aq nie...
aq da xtau da nk wat cmne...ble aq pkir aq msti nangis...aq buntu...xtau nk wat cmne...pe ksdahan crite kte???
pe ksdhan cnta kte???mmpu ke kte kekal slame nyer???aq xtau...aq syg dye...tpi aq xsgop...hncor an kbhgiaan owg....wlaupown dye xbhgia aq xsgop...aq nk dye apy...tpi cmne???ade kah aq sgop 3ma hkikat...atie aq cmne???bley ke aq lalui sume nie...ary2 ku tanpa dye???hdop ku tnpa dye???syg dye???mmpu ke aq???x..aq xtau...aq xnk khilangan dye...dye jnji xkan tgal an aq....n dye ckp dye akn slalu igt jnji dye 2...smpai ble???aq xtau....btape hncur nyer atie aq ble dye crite an sume nyer at aq...bkan aq xcbe nk lpe an dye...tgal an dye...da byk kli da...tpi aq still xmmpu...aq xbley...ssh sgt2...aq xprnh dpt sowg yg btol2 syg an aq...cmne dye syg an aq...sbb 2 ble aq da dpt aq ssh nk lpas an...aq xnk dye ilang...aq nk idop ngan dye smpai akhir nfas ku...aq nk sgt2 dye tman an aq smpai aq mti nnti...aq xnk owg laen..aq nk dye je..."awk!!sye syg awk sgt2...sye xnk ilang awak..."andai nyer la dye bce pe yg aq tlis nie...aq arap sgt2 dye xkn tgal an aq...